< br >Chapter 3130 < br >I haven't seen him for only a week. Si Yan has changed a lot, and the whole person's breath has become gloomy and more depressed. < br >her mind is astringent, and her footsteps are unconsciously light. < br >Si Yan opened his eyes, a pair of cold and proud eyes, become dim, hoarse mouth, "what are you doing here?" < br >Su Xi sat opposite him and said, "come to see you!" < br >Si Yan leaned over to pour her tea. "what do I have to see? it's still the same!" < br >Su Xi froze at him. "are you sure you're still the same?" < br >Si Yan paused holding the hand of the teapot, trembling slightly, the water splashed in the cup, and the clear sound was somewhat harsh in the sultry afternoon. < br >he put down the teapot, his face full of stubble looked even more decadent. "have you gone to see Ling Yinuo recently?" < br >when he mentioned Ling Yinuo, he seemed to have a glimmer of life at the bottom of his eyes, but soon, like a touch of light shining on a pool of stagnant water, he sank into darkness and silence. < br >Su Xi nodded. "she's recovering well. She can already hold something light in her right hand, and she's in good spirits." < br >Si Yan nodded slowly. "that's good." < br >he asked in a milder tone, "does she think of me?" < br >Su Xi paused and then whispered, "No." < br >Si Yan lowered his eyes and ticked the corners of his lips, as if he laughed at himself and comforted himself. "it's good if he doesn't have it." < br >Su Xi took a deep breath. "isn't that what you want?" Why do you want to turn yourself into this again? " < br >Si Yan looked a little pale and reached for the cigarette. He couldn't smoke until it came out. His tight jaw looked restless and restless. < br >Su Xi said, "smoke if you want. One cigarette won't make much difference." < br >Si Yan still put the cigarette case back. Xiao Meow ran over and jumped on his shoulder, looking at Su Xi curiously with big eyes. < br >this time Si Yan did not brush it down, and Xiao Meow was bolder, lying down directly, lazily basking in the sun. < br >(adsbygoogle = indo.adsbygoogle | | []). Ush ({}); < br >Si Yan turned to Xiao Meow, his black eyes had no focal length, his voice was low and slow, and there was repressed pain in every syllable. < br >"I thought I was cheap. I desperately wanted to drive Ling Yinuo away. I wanted her to forget me. When she really forgot, I was the one who couldn't let go." < br >Ling Yinuo is a brilliant beam of light. He feels that he should live in darkness and is not worthy of this beam of light. < br >but he didn't know that she had seeped into his life, and he didn't understand what darkness was until she really pulled away. < br >he also told himself that this was the result he wanted. Ling Yinuo forgot him and would live a normal young lady's life and be very happy. < br >he will be the same as before. < br >but for some reason, he suddenly got tired of everything, the sleepless nights, and the dawn every day. < br >even hates himself. < br >his heart is always empty, as if the most precious and important things have been dug away, and everything in his life is meaningless. < br >occasionally wants to paralyze himself by being drunk. When he is dizzy, some pain becomes clearer. Ling Yinuo smiles in front of him and expresses his love jokingly to him. < br >her sweet and delicate voice pulls every nerve of him infinitely, making him wander and wander in joy and despair. < br >there are countless times, he heard Ling Yinuo cry in his sleep, crying repressed sadness, just like on the phone that day, let him heart-wrenching and distressing. < br >he tried to find her and comfort her, but he couldn't find her anywhere. < br >time did not play down these pains and memories, but became more and more profound, and he became more and more depressed and decadent, shrouded in an irritable and gloomy mood, like a headless fly that could not find an outlet for relief. < br >God punished him and didn't even give him a chance to regret. < br >< br/ >< br >

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